Do you remember the time when you first got saved? When you had just accepted Jesus Christ and all that you want to do is share His relentless love to everyone you know? You go to your friends, your loved ones and even to strangers just to tell them the Gospel. But of course, we know what happens to bold believers, right? The boldest Christians are the ones who are mostly rejected and broken because they are at the tip of the spear. Like everybody else, the boldest are also susceptible to fear and doubt.

Many Christians today stopped reaching out because of fear and some think that they lack competency to relate to people. I myself once stopped reaching out to my unsaved friends because even I had doubts. I feared that I might not be able to answer questions about God. Nonetheless, I felt the need to do something about my doubt. It bothered me that many of our actions do not follow what we believe in. If we really believe that Jesus was raised from the dead, we should not be quiet about it. As the writer of the docu-movie Audacity put it, “Love can’t stay silent.”

When Jesus was asked about the greatest commandment, Jesus replied:

‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul and mind.’ This is the first and the greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”
Matthew 22:37-39

If we go back to the Old Testament, the Ten Commandments is also focused on these. The first four commandments is about our relationship with God and the last six is about how we relate to our neighbor. Since the greatest commandment of God is to love Him and His people, how should we, His disciples, respond in light of this truth?

Disciple means a student. Its root word is discipline.

A disciple is someone who learns a discipline from somebody – and in our case, our Lord and Savior.

It is our responsibility as disciples to learn more from Him and to deepen our faith in Him so we can also pass it on to others. Finding answers to our doubts about God and sharing the answers to our doubting friends, telling them who Jesus is and His wonderful love to the unsaved is equivalent to loving them.

Fear and doubt often go hand in hand. When we fear something more than God, we doubt His authority, sovereignty, goodness and love. On the other hand, courage is not the absence of fear but the presence of trust that God will see you through.

Jesus’ disciples, on many occasions, showed doubt and fear, in spite already having witnessed God’s power in Him.   They doubted when He was with them on a boat and a storm almost overtook them. They scattered and hid out of fear when Jesus was arrested. One of them even asked to touch His wounds when He appeared after rising from the dead.

Each time, Jesus accepts them with grace. He called and sought them even if they are afraid, helped them when they are in doubt. God is not surprised by our failures, for He came to overcome and rescue us from our sins.

Loving God involves knowing Him more. Knowing this relentless love from God is the only way to authentically share the Gospel to the unsaved and love others as ourselves. Read your Bible. Ask your leaders about the things that are bothering you and see how God will reveal Himself to you despite of your doubts.


Patrick Purugganan is from Real Life Christian Communities. He’s an aspiring youth pastor and is very passionate for purity.