UNWAVERING FAITH DESPITE ONGOING SICKNESS AND PAIN
I grew up with a typical absence seizures, the kind where you get the aura . . . then stare out . . . but they never went away. I grew up taking Phenobarbital. I also grew up in a family that didn’t know Jesus. I got married when I was 19 – and after we got married he pressed this Jesus thing on me and I rejected it. Our marriage was always off and on . . .
Then, in my early twenties, an odd type of seizure kept trying to show up during stressful times . . . and I wrote it off. Mind you, it was twice as stressful, for I still wasn’t into Jesus. Then, I was blessed with my being pregnant with my daughter, Tory – in spite of a rocky relationship. During the pregnancy, my seizures got worse. My neurologist in Alabama kept increasing my dosage of Phenobarbital.
When I had my daughter, the seizures continued. And my marriage did not get better. I went back to Arizona to find a neurologist who could do something else. In time, my husband felt he had to as well.
I had my first brain surgery in 2002 at the Mayo Hospital . It was painful but I was seizure free. I had, oddly, bought a cross right before the surgery – not sure why. Then, two months after my surgery, we had to move to Texas where my now ex-husband was stationed with the Army. Four days after getting there, the first night in our apartment, he beat me. The Army pulled him out, and in time my daughter and I went back to Arizona, where I was in dire need. I was in tears and eventually turned to overdosing on Phenobarbital to numb the pain. I knew I needed something else.
I somehow found this purple sign that said “Cornerstone.” It became my church on Feb 9, 2003. Since then I have been going there. I sought Him that year, finding wellness. I almost didn’t make it once, but that was when I turned for good, knowing I’d never turn back.
I have been on fire ever since. And He has opened doors for my health. I had my second brain surgery in 2005 that was fabulous. I have had every test you can imagine and been on every drug you could have questions about. Seizures were controlled for a while but then I had more than several medication changes – faith tests, I would say. When you get very ill, it is hard. But you must look up to Him knowing He will hold your hand through it all.
Later on, they found I had a kidney that doesn’t work right – only 12% functional, air in my salivary gland that stings, TMJ, RLS – and for a couple years had some signs off and on of MS.
I went in for testing. We will see. God has reasons for everything and will see me through.
If He helped me find Him, He will help me live for Him!
He is amazing. I pray my family comes to Him. Nobody has. We weren’t raised to know Him. So I feel blessed with all I went through and praise Him for the trials. I will never regret them. I am thrilled to serve Him!
“Don’t worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
This article is originally published at truthsaves.org