There was a time when all I knew about Jesus was his name.  In fact, I was not interested to know Him at all.  Sure, I’d go to church once in awhile, but just to meet friends. I was not taught to read the Bible, although we had a few copies gathering dust at home.

I grew up with hatred. Hatred towards my father and his side of the family. My father would hit me and often choke me. My mom left us and moved to another country, leaving me to deal with my father. I had been rebellious and suicidal ever since, keeping the pain, hatred and insecurities and allowing them to grow within me.

At 16, a childhood friend encouraged me to attend youth camp. I enjoyed it, and little by little, I found myself being active in church. But that was it. I knew that nothing had changed inside.

I was still the same rebellious person.  In fact, it was worse because even while I had been actively serving in church, I was living with my boyfriend, engaging in sexual immorality for 4 years.

However, with my involvement in church and with my consistent hearing of God’s Word, something eventually stirred and urged me to intentionally seek a deeper and personal relationship with Jesus.  I got tired of the hypocrisy I was living. There had to be something more than just attending and getting involved in church. There had to be something more than being a Sunday Christian, and living the my life in rebellion to God. That changed happened one weekend – three nights, two days – at a church retreat.

That change led to an unquenchable thirst for Jesus. It led to a life of repentance and surrender. For the first time, I understood the Gospel, and I felt the assurance of my salvation. Forgiveness became possible because I had been forgiven.

I came home from that retreat, crying. I asked my father for his forgiveness. I had been set free from all the pain and bitterness that I had bottled inside for years! I now live a completely different life. I had gotten out of that relationship and set my life straight. I feel more loved, secure and complete, and my life is now dedicated to serving God.

Truly, God’s grace is more than amazing! He is faithful and true to His promise, He did not forsake me. He has loved me unconditionally and called me to serve Him.

“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
Romans 8:38-39